Column Basman Elderawi
A friendly reminder
At this time, I need to remind myself of who I am. Maybe I need to remind myself of the blessings that I have. I also need to keep walking for the things that I don’t have. I need to keep looking for answers for the unanswered questions but I also need to laugh, to cry, to loudly scream. To live my journey and to stretch it to the max regardless of its end. I need not to cover my face when I said I am scared. I don’t need to be the best version of who I am because it’s a cliché. I bleed and learn and bleed again. I want to put my hand in mud to touch what it is feel like.
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I try to love my skin, to love my face yet I won’t allow anyone to point at it and laugh. I try to love my body even when I feel it hates me. I try to be honest but I lie sometimes. I hate politics and hate its dogs. I am not perfect and I don’t want to be. I want to stand on the beach and let the air touch my face but I don’t want the air to smell like a sewage under the thumb of the other guy. I want the right of my bladder to pee in a twelve hours trip from a crossing to an airport without holding it until the feeling of explode. I want to tell people what I truly feel. I want to remind myself I am not only what I achieve, I am what I try and hardly try to be or do.
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I have applied to an application called a note from the universe and the universe send me a note today, “Through you, through you, through you, Basman… The magic works through you. Not beside you. Not around you. Not for you. Not despite you. But through you. You have to go there. You have to choose your stage. You have to do your dance. Putting yourself in place, to any degree that you can, even if it scares you, even when it’s “hard,” even if it’s just your big toe. Stretch yourself, scoff at the odds, get the ball rolling so that the magic can then come alive and sweep you off your feet with its infinite grace and glory. You wouldn’t just carry around the seeds for the garden of your dreams in your pocket, all the while asking where your flowers were? Nope, you’d have to brave the elements, you’d have to choose the location, and then you’d have to go there. Your life is your wand (or hoe), The Universe”.
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I simply agree on that. To chase your dream, you need to have more than having the dreams themselves. You need to work hard by braving the elements and the location to seed your dreams in. I don’t understand why some people work harder and get lesser, maybe because some values and systems of this world need to change but this won’t stop me to work for my dreams and to also work for a change.
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Thank you, Universe for this friendly reminder! At this time, I would rather dance over my fears than cry over them but I am not sure if I can take it for granted but I would love to give it a try.
